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Music That Is Years In The Making

March 02, 20244 min read

From the ceaseless hum of New York City’s neighborhoods to the soulful twang of Austin's live venues, my life has always moved to a rhythm set by the places I've called home and the music that flowed through their veins. I'm Phil Dutra, and this is the story of how my music—born from a battle with anxiety and transformed through years of melodic alchemy—found its place in the world.

It began with a heart beating in time with the city that never sleeps. My childhood in New York City was a symphony of sounds: sirens mingling with pop music, the chatter of crowded streets, and the distant songs of the night. In this urban setting, I found my first love—the Beatles—a band whose music spoke of universal truths and simple joys. They were my anchor, holding me steady in a world that often felt overwhelming.

As the years slipped by, the music of the '70s, ‘80s and '90s etched their influence into my soul. The storytelling in Fleetwood Mac's harmonies, the raw honesty in the Eagles' lyrics, and the emotional resonance of bands like Toad The Wet Sprocket and Gin Blossoms—they all shaped the musician I would become. But beneath the surface of this evolving soundscape, a storm was brewing.

Anxiety was my shadow, a specter that haunted each step and muddled my thoughts. It was a relentless noise that drowned out the harmony of life, a clatter that I couldn't escape. It wasn't until my 30s that I reached out for help, grasping for the threads of peace in a mind mired in tumult. Therapy, medication, and meditation became my lifelines, each one pulling me closer to still waters.

Yet, it was music where I found my true respite. In the craft of songwriting, the discord of my fears found expression. I learned to channel the static into chords, the panic into poetry. My guitar became a vessel, carrying me over the waves of worry to a place where I could stand firm and sing out the truth of my experience.

"Right Behind The Rain," my most recent album, is the story of this journey. It's an anthology of anthems, each one a chapter in my transformation. The title track is more than a song—it's a manifesto of resilience, a declaration that even the fiercest storm gives way to clarity and growth. It's about finding the courage to face the tempest, to dance in the downpour, and to emerge on the other side, not just unbroken, but reborn.

The album is a dialogue between genres, where the introspective twang of country meets the defiant pulse of indie-rock. It's a sound that's both a throwback and a bold step forward, with each track unfolding like a map of my inner landscape. "She Walks Away" is a ballad of not letting go, while "(Let Me Be Your) Superman" is an ode to the heroism found in vulnerability. "Another Day Alone" is a raw echo of solitude, and the Michael Lloyd Remix of "She Walks Away" offers a renewed perspective, a different shade of the original emotion.

These songs are my outstretched hand to you, the listener. They are an invitation to share in the story of a life that has wrestled with shadows and found light. This album, offered at $9.95, is a token of my journey—a token that I hope resonates with your own experiences.

Through the years, as I've played in dimly lit bars and under the spotlight of grand stages, I've seen how music can bridge the vast expanse between souls. "Right Behind The Rain" is my bridge to you. It's a testament to the power of music to transform, to heal, and to unite.

As you listen to the melodies and immerse yourself in the lyrics, know that you are not alone in your struggles, nor in your victories. Music is the universal storyteller, and in its verses, we find our shared humanity. This album is my narrative, but it's also yours. It's a reflection of the collective heartache, joy, and revelation that we all experience.

So, I invite you to join me in this auditory odyssey. Let's traverse the storms of life together with music as our guide. Let's find solace in the shared rhythm of our stories and discover the beauty that lies just beyond the rain.

"Right Behind The Rain" is more than an album—it's a milestone on a path that we all walk. It's a reminder that every storm eventually passes, and in its wake, we often find our truest selves.

Welcome to my world, to my heart, to the journey that lies "Right Behind The Rain."

Yours in melody and memory,

Phil Dutra

Phil Dutra

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